MY SEXUAL SELF AT AGE SIXTY: On the Astrophysics of Attraction

	Like a rogue planet passing occasionally into view
	most of the time I drift through interstellar space
	in a cold vacuum of inconspicuity, surrounded by
	frozen asteroids & traces of interstellar debris.

	Sometimes, however,
	a random passing body produces
	a faint nudge – over time, such events shift orbits
	& eventually I start a descent
	towards the solar center.

	Approaching the inner planets
	my body heats up & vapours arise.

	At the height of passion
	I become incandescent —
	a celestial sperm whose tail elongates
	along a path with only two outcomes:
	repetition or impact.

	Will this time be another fleeting encounter?
	Or a finale longed for since emerging
	4.6 billion years ago?

	Statistical probabilities suggest this:
	Heading towards the outskirts of oblivion,
	I will cool down while moving past jovial gas giants.

	Entering a world where the calmness is near perfect,
	amidst frigid ejecta & empty space,
	I will become coolly indifferent–
	almost forgetting how I
	am linked to ancient cycles
	& when it comes to gravity
	all of us
	can be swayed
	.


Miok:    Hmm. This dude seems so utterly isolated.

Chris:   Yeah. I would guess he’s afraid of close encounters of any kind.

Tim:     Well, human closeness is seldom easy. All of us bear the scars of former 
         collisions. It’s amazing that most of us manage to function as well as we do.

Cantara: Hey, which would you rather be — stuck way out in the frozen Kuiper belt
         or risking collision to obtain closeness and warmth?

Miok:    Isn’t moderation possible? Is it really necessary to go to extremes?


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from Heart Scenes: Emotional Landscapes via Art, Poetry, & Prose by T Newfields
Summary:  Reflections on middle-aged libidos and moving beyond desire.
Keywords: human intimacy, cyclic existence, non-desire, sexual attraction

Author: T Newfields [Nitta Hirou / Huáng Yuèwǔ] (b. 1955 - ?)
Begun: 2014 in Tokyo  ☆ Finished: 2023 in Yokohama 
Creative Commons License: Attribution. {{CC-BY-4.0}} Granted

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